Excited about the New Year!!!

I am really excited about the New Year. In years past, for some reason, crossing over into a New Year made me uneasy. It was scary to me b/c we were crossing over into the unknown. What would this new year bring? I thank God for a change of mind. I hold no fear whatsoever of the new year...only expectation. God is good. He will continue to be good. God told me months ago that no matter how it looked, the seasons had changed for me. I believe that. It does not matter that the calendar will flip to another year b/c our calendar is not His. His timing is not ours. It's as simple as that. The calendar is for ME or US to mark time...not God. So, what I have declared months ago...I'M STILL DECLARING. My expectation comes from being one day closer to the manifestation of what God has already told me was mine. Thank you God for the season change. Thank you for the season of Manifestation! Thank you for the rain!! As I look back on my year it seems as if I have taken one step forward and 5 back. I've made some mistakes and missed a few blessings but guess what? I repented and continued to take my one step forward no matter how little..I've made progress and I thank God for even that. I can truly say that I am not where I used to be and every single time discouragement knocked at my door, God was right there to lift me up! NEVER has He failed me! So, if I were to say any encouraging word to anyone that might read this...it would be.. not to look at 2010 as a failure! If you've moved an inch, you made progress. If you failed at something or something didn't come to pass that you thought would and you still did NOT give up..pat yourself on the back, Give God glory and keep it moving!! Also know that just because it's the end of OUR calendar year...it's not the end of God's!! He holds time in His hands!! We sometimes give ourselves unrealistic deadlines and want to speed up things when God might want to take us at a slower pace so He can prepare us and teach us some things!! And, if you've missed any timing..God is FAITHFUL to restore ALL. As long as you have breath in your body and continue to serve and obey God..you keep your hope alive! He's a God of not only a 2nd chance but countless.

Loving The Quiet

I love to be quiet. I love quiet. There is nothing like QUIET! LOL!! Consistent quiet..no. I'm a wife and mother. I love my family. I love the sound of their laughter and happiness. I can even deal with the disagreements and the yelling to a certain degree. That's called life. However, there must be a time of QUIET. Time to sit in silence and meditate, read the word and reflect on the goodness of God or time to be quiet and just think....NOTHING. Its important. None of us can remain in our sound mind if we have the tv and radio constantly blasting or always talking on the phone or with our friends. We can never regroup and reenergize if we are always running to and from and filling up our schedules with busy NOTHINGNESS. In the end, where does that get us? What are we chasing? Even as young as my 38 years, sometimes I long for the times of simplicity. The times where families sat down and ate dinner together. The times where the children had daily chores to do. The time where families had to grow their own food and raise their own livestock. The times where neighbors knew each other and watched out for each other and the whole neighborhood raised a child and people had good, sound morals! I will gladly take those times over the ones we live in now where there is an excess of greed, coldness and people that are just so busy that life is passing them by but they don't even realize it!! Slow down people!!! Relect, breathe, pray, be thankful. Be quiet and hear God. Don't get caught up in the everyday busy that pulls you away from God.

Thankful!

You know what? I'm sitting here looking around reflecting on how GOOD GOD IS and how thankful I am to be right where I am at this very moment in time. Now, if I thought hard enough, I can come up with something that I'd wish I'd done or could go or yadda, yadda, yadda...but I choose not to. I CHOOSE to be THANKFUL. I refuse to think too deeply about anything at this moment. I just CHOOSE to relax in the fact that things could be worse and in all honesty, I have NOTHING to complain about. GOD IS GOOD. He WILL pefect all that concerns me. He loves me and promises to always be with me! Hey! Wow! I'm mighty blessed! How about you?

One of my friends read the poem I posted a few nights ago and she called me "deep". She said that she understood it but maybe some people wouldn't. LOL. I read it again and I guess that's right. She also asked me was I talking about myself? LOL. Hmmm.....no, not that night, but I'm sure it was me at some point and time. Actually, that night my hubby came home from work. He didn't give me my hello kiss and I said something to him about it. We were fine. No anger involved. When I started to type other things came to mind and out popped the poem. I shared it b/c it is/was relevant! If we are brutally honest with ourselves, we can probably say that one time or another we came home from work(or wherever) tired, broke down, irritated and just didn't feel like being bothered! You might have a spouse or a family or a pet at home but to be honest, you just wanted peace and quiet! LOL. IT'S TRUE! COME ON! BE REAL! LOL!! Whether you are married with no children, married with children, a single parent with children or even if you live alone, you have kept up the 'pretense' of a smile being on your face while in the pubic eye when you weren't feeling it and then got behind closed doors and let the 'real you' of the moment come out. Guess what it's called? BEING HUMAN! LOL.(but also, not being prayed UP!) What WE(yes me too) must learn to do is to pray on our way home. Ask God to shake off the days stresses and allow us to breathe and rest in Him so that when we get home, we will love on our family/spouse/ourselves the way they/we deserve and to be mentally prepared to meet their needs. We should never be called out because we show strangers every courtesy but not our flesh and blood and this happens ALOT, whether you are in the Body of Christ or not. God wants us to be real at all times. My prayer is that we grow in God and get consistent in our emotions and be loving at all times. That's a PROCESS but if we are willing to yield to it and work at it ON PURPOSE, we'll see a change!

Hard day, feeling tired, not wanting to be bothered,
Get home, want to rest but see the kids you fathered
Wanting hugs, wanting attention, want to show daddy their "A"
But daddy ignores them thinking "I had such a hard day".

Wife made dinner, hot plate on the table,
Waiting for the hello Kiss.
Instead Daddy sits down and begins to eat
The whole family he dismiss!

Wife feels unappreciated
Children feel unloved
Daddy takes a shower and goes right to bed
Family ignored.

Next thing you know
Wife is upset
And kids are fighting and calling names
Daddy is wondering why they trippin'
Have they gone insane?

The problem was
The atmosphere of love was set
When Daddy got home
But when he decided he didn't have time for family
And wanted to be alone;
Peace got up and gone.

Let's pay attention
Fathers as well as Mothers
Husbands and well as wives,
We must be aware and on our guard
So satan won't come in and divide!

Remember,
Charity begins at home and family comes first
Not the other way around.
It's not right or fair to be Mr.or Ms. Charisma
At work and church or in front of others
And run your family in the ground!

They deserve your best, your time, your patience
Your love.
You have a responsibility toward them!
And when you make sure their needs are met,
You'll find more peace within.

Be Blessed!!!!

Prayer Answering God!

God is SOOO concerned about us!!! Yesterday I went through a hard "patch" and I had to fight and pray my way through. At that particular time I had not said anything to anyone but God about my struggle. It was ROUGH. My feelings were hurt so I cried a little and I prayed and then I began to proclaim the Word and not back down from what I KNOW God called me to do!!! I left it alone and went on but I sought God on whether or not I was in the right position and doing the right thing. This morning as I sat at my desk I got an unexpected call from A Woman of God (actually 2) that spoke to the VERY THING that I had battled against the previous day!! God blessed me and let me know how very much He cares for me. Yeah, we know God loves us but it sure feels good when He shows up and shows up like He does!!! For Example: WE can be married and we know our hubby/wife loves us but when they bring home flowers or chocolates or a beautiful card...that just makes you feel GOOD!! Extra Special and that's how I felt today. I LOVE YOU LORD!!! Thank you for being a prayer answering God!!

To Speak or Not To Speak...That is the Question!

God dealt with me about an issue this weekend and it was to speak or not to speak regarding a certain issue. We simply must pray and listen to the Holy Spirit when He guides us to open up our mouths about something God has shown us REGARDLES of the backlash and what people may think. Now, some people will say, and I've heard these words..."You should keep your mouth closed and just pray." Or "When God gives you something to say, if it's in the right timing, that person won't even get mad." Now, both of these may be true IN SOME INSTANCES, but you better know that sometimes when God requires us to open up our mouths and speak people won't like it!! Think about Jesus when He walked the earth. People were so mad that He was calling our their sin that they plotted to kill Him and sought to stone Him countless times!! When God shows us an area that concerns us and especially when He shows us the enemies plot, you better believe He wants us to open our mouths against the enemy AND be in prayer! I'm so thankful for God opening up my eyes to this situation because the enemy WILL NOT WIN. God revealed him and let me know that I needed to be alert and ready to war. And, through Him, victory is assured. So, seek God, hear Him and when He requires you to speak...OPEN YOUR MOUTH. I did this today and no, the person did not like what I was saying but I knew it was the truth and I knew that it had to be done. So, I take the backlash with peace. One thing I do know is that God is with me.

Thankful!!

Today I am just THANKFUL for the little things as well as the big things. I'm just all around, deep down in my soul...THANKFUL! God is good! This morning I came downstairs and for about an hour I just sat, not doing anything but just being THANKFUL. I wasn't praying, praising, meditating, I was just BEING. BEING thankful, BEING quiet. BEING at rest and it was GOOD.

Later on I decided to take my two daughters and my 3neices who had spent the night, out for a while and then I had planned to meet their dad to drop them off. Well, I got about 5 miles away and the alarm came on in my car saying my tire pressure was low! i pulled over and got out and my right back tire was whisling b/c the air was rushing out! It was rainy and cold and I have no CLUE how to change a tire!! So, I turned around and coasted back home praying that my tire would not go completely flat b/c i knew that I couldn't drive on my rim and I had 5 girls in my car and it was cold and rainy outside! As soon as I got back home, I came in, made a call. when I walked back outside my tire was completely flat! Wow! Just in time! God is good!

then, when I called ROADSIDE ASSISTANCE, I was told that tire repairs was not covered under my plan! WHAT? The number one problem on the roadside is TIRES! So, I had to pay. $85 and about 1hr 1/2 later, my tire was plugged and fixed. It was too late to go anywhere so I came on back in my house, put my pj's on and relaxed.

I guess I said all that to say this...although my day didn't go as I planned...I am thankful that we got home before we were stranded on the side of the road waiting for roadside asst. I am thankful that I had the $85 dollars to get everything fixed, even though my plan didn't cover it and I had to wait for him to get here. I am thankful now that everything is fixed and I could wait safely with the girls at home. So,I was thankful over the small things. I didn't get done what I needed to do...but hey, I got back home and got back in my PJ's and relaxed on my couch and the girls are able to play with their cousins longer.

I really think my day went as smoothly as it and I didn't overract and panic like possible b/c I had that quiet time to reflect on just being THANKFUL and knowing that it does not always have to be my way or go the way that we planned. Just be THANKFUL over even the smallest of things, be flexible and stop being hard on yourself. All things work together for our good.

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Dance, Dance, Dance!!

I posted on my facebook page this evening a small part of MaryMary's song. It says "Maybe you don't understand why I gotta dance. There was something that had me bound but it's over now! Imma throw my hands up, wave 'em all in the air, cause all I wanna do is dance, dance dance!!" Praise God!! When I think about that song.. I wonder...when exactly do you dance? When you SEE the deliverance OR when you BELIEVE DELIVERANCE? It's not always the same thing! See, when we are delivered from something, the evidence of it might not be right then but in FAITH on who God says He is..Well, we need to dance then!! It might not be an all out run but if you even tap yo' feet with BELIEF that you are healed, THAT is accounted as faith. So saints...I'm tapping my feet, praising God, raising my hands and smiling because BY FAITH...those things that had me bound are OVER NOW. I choose to be free based on the Word of God that says I'm free! What about you? Let's stop giving the enemy so much glory and Glorify God so the enemy can be defeated!

Power HAS Changed Hands!!!

God has been doing so many things this week that He has blown my mind!! Earlier this week a friend of mine sent an email asking if I would like to attend a "Power Must Change Hands" service this morning. 9am. Well, it was not at her church or my church and I am often very WARY about attending other churches without prayer but when I read her email, something pulled in my spirit. The last time I felt this, God did something MIGHTY. So, well, I prayed about it but the feeling in my belly did not change and He truly did something mighty today! So much confirming Word came forth...all that God had put in my spirit all week had prepared me for this morning. I love Him!! He is SOO wonderful!! Look out!! Manifestation times ARE HERE. Look OUT for my testimonies!!!

David

Wow. God is so awesome! As we travel on our journey through this life, we are going to make some mistakes. It's inevitable. When we are in Christ, we repent and go but one thing the devil wants us to do is to hold on to mistakes so he can bring condemnation upon us. Even when we repent and God has forgotten all about it, the enemy is relentless in continuously bringing our mistake up in our face. Here is where we must diligently fight with the Word of God and always walk in the security of who God is and who we are in Him. God is so awesome and I love Him so much b/c all this week He has been showing me and teaching me what MY identity is IN HIM. One thing about David is that through ALL the mistakes He made, he always stuck to God and ALWAYS remembered WHO he was and WHOSE he was. There was no doubt whatsoever with him! Sometimes the enemy will play on our minds and emotions so much that we will begin to doubt our status with God. Wait! He Loves us and just because we mess up, like all along God knew we would do, that does not change who and what He called us to be, our destiny or assignment. Who He called us to be before we were even formed in our mother's wombs. Always remember who you are in God!! That was one thing about DAvid. He remained steadfast concerning WHO he was in GOD. I was in the bath tonight and that word popped in my spirit again. STEADFAST. wow. I'm going to meditate on that. Many times in the Word, DAvid was depressed or felt down. Most of that was because of how his sin distanced him from God and how he felt disconnected from him but NEVER because He doubted his position in God. That wasn't pride, it was just his confidence and security in God. wow. That is profound. (oh, and the other reason why I feel like he felt this way is because Saul just wouldn't leave him alone!!! LOL) Just a little humor but I'm going to mediatate on David. The example of his life brought me to a deeper understanding today. Thank you Jesus!

God Has Done It Again!

Wow!! God is so awesome! There is nothing or no one that compares to Him. He has come again today and confirmed Himself yet again! He have me a good talking to this morning and I'm loving Him for it. He is such an on time God. Once again, it is WAIT. Now, I will be honest, I don't wait well. I hate to wait. I'm the Let's Go...Let's get on with it GIRL! LOL!! It is hard for me to tarry and wait for anything but I tell you, this must be one lesson that the Lord wants me to learn! On prayer call this morning, the woman of God spoke of God saying wait on Him and to things His way and not our own way. When I got to work and pulled up my devotion from today....same thing. God said through His servants that all His promises are Yes and Amen and we need to rest in the assurance that even though it seems like we have been waiting a long time for God's promises to come to pass, His Word does NOT come back void! It will accomplish ALL that He sent it, no matter what our natural eyes see! God is further confirming what He said to me yesterday. His timing! His way..not ours!! HE IS GOOD!!! We just need to remain faithful to Him. We cannot let go of Hope no matter what. My prayer is that I REST in Him. That I stop feeling 'imagined' pressure and ENJOY THE JOURNEY, which is what God wants us to do!! Enjoy the Journey!! PRAISE GOD.