Take The Limits Off

12-6-13 Something so profound and awesome happened to me that I just have to tell it. I saw on my blog that I haven't blogged in over a year! Wow! I purchased a voice recorder several months ago and I've been faithful to try and record and journal on my way to work or when I'm in the car alone and I recorded this experience on it but...it still wasn't enough. I was going to write it down on a piece of paper, type it in my computer and just save it...but,that still wasn't enough. I have to post it somewhere that I knew it could not be deleted where I could come back years from now and still read of this glorious experience and worship in wonder all over again and who knows, maybe someone will stumble across it and be blessed! So many things have been happening in my life. So many things and nothing at the same time! I can't explain it! (smile) But, I count myself still a blessed individual because there is always someone worse off than me. We all have our own battles that we have to contend with, but, this THING has been hard for some time and the clouds are finally clearing. Praise My Lord! Well, a few nights ago, I was awakened out of my sleep in the wee hours of the morning. My mind was so full of thoughts of this and that, I have to make this decision, that decision, what do I choose, which way do I go? How will it work? UGH! I got so SICK of my RUNNING mind. I thought about going into my closet to pray. (this is where I go for quiet time) I literally remember laying there trying to fight my mind by myself b/c my flesh didn't feel like getting out of bed but my closet beckoned and my thoughts raged. I went in and sat. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to begin to even "go in". I was weak and just asked the Holy Spirit to help me. I began to pray in tongues and worship and tears were pouring. As I did this, I began to feel the presence of The Lord so STRONG. I began to decree and declare some things in my life. I began to speak those things that are not as though they were. I began to PROCLAIM what I wanted to happen. As I continued to worship and praise, I saw a suitcase put before me. It was silver like those that the people on the movies carry that were full of MONEY. I reached out my hand and opened the case and began to pass stacks of money around. I gave to this cause, that cause, this person that had a need, that person that had a need. I paid off all my bills and continued to give out of this suitcase. Then it disappeared and a long, heavy sword appeared in front of me. It was very long and beautiful. the handle was beautiful...it was standing straight up in front of me in mid air so I reached out and wrapped my hands around it and began to ask "God, what does this mean?" A sword? As I held it up with my hands around it (as they are holding a sword in the movies when they are preparing to fight) I began to swing it back and forth...Battling with the Sword of the Spirit. The Word of God. I began to put on other pieces of armor. helmet of salvation, shield of faith, waist with truth, breastplate of righteousness, feet with the gospel of peace. ( I am getting more understanding of the sword as I type now). Then the sword went away and the suitcase was back. I don't remember opening it this time but it was there again before me. I remember thinking how all my needs are supplied. Then, something even more beautiful happened. I was suddenly sitting at a table. A long table. One thing I thought was "He has prepared a table for me in the presence of my enemies.(?) I was not at the head of the table but sitting in a beautiful, gorgeous seat on the left side of the table. The table was covered with a white tablecloth and right in front of me was a spread fit for a queen. the plate, goblet, silver wear was all shiny and beautiful and I was being served. YES, SERVED! An angel was standing on my left side and one was on my right side picking up my goblet and pouring the finest wine into it. I remember smiling and feeling so special! Like someone had given me the best GIFT in the world! I began to eat the food and drink. It was so DELICIOUS! I don't know what the food was! LOL! I did know that I was drinking sweet wine. I put my goblet down and looked to my right down the table and there at the head of table sat JESUS! He had a crown on his head and dressed in white. He was watching me smiling. He was happy that I was happy and enjoying my meal. He never stopped smiling or looking at me with love in His eyes. I looked upon Him and bowed my head and thanked Him over and over again weeping, bowing thanking, praising. I was so HAPPY and THANKFUL! Then, the food went away and a tray was sat before me with a cover on it. Again, it was shiny and silver, beautiful. To give you a visual..have you ever spent the night at a hotel and ordered room service or seen someone order room service on tv and it was bought to you on a wheeled cart in a stainless steal tray with a tall, domed lid? I'm not talking about that cheap metal that you get when you are in the hospital! I'm talking about room service at the finest hotel..Well, this was finer and shinier than that! It was placed right in front of me at the table. I remember wondering what it was. Dessert? I reached up and lifted the dome. I can't tell you exactly WHAT was under that dome but I just knew and I began to weep as understanding began to flow over me. There under that dome, on that tray was all my prayers. Everything I had ever asked for, prayed about, sought God about. And what made me weep even harder was also under that tray was my DESIRES. My deep, heart felt desires that only God REALLY knows. They were there too. He heard them and kept every one and He was answering them for ME. FOR ME! The very depth of what I was feeling and the KNOWING of just HOW MUCH JESUS LOVES ME had me so humble and weak that I turned my head to the right again to look upon Him and could barely see Him through my tears. All I could do was bow down and worship Him and praise Him and thank Him and thank Him and thank Him and worship Him even more. He never said anything but He didn't have to. He kept the same smile on His face that was so FULL OF PURE LOVE FOR ME THAT I COULD HARDLY STAND IT. Just LOVE. I praised Him and thanked Him even more,even as the angels readied me to go back to bed. I literally saw them place a cover/ white cover over me as I laid down. In my natural body, I had come out of my closet and got back in my bed. Now, I thought..Did I actually witness that? Did that just happen? Was it a dream? no. I was fully awake the whole time. Was it a vision? I don't know. Actually, to me it does not matter because I know I had an encounter with My Heavenly Daddy. I went in that closet one way and I came back out completely different. All I know was that it was BEAUTIFUL. JESUS IS BEAUTIFUL. He loves each and every one of us and no matter what, He looks at us ALL with that same sweet smile that is FULL of love and He LOVES to see us happy and blessed. THE FATHER LOVES US SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. There are no words that can describe that love. All we need to do is receive it. yes, even bask and rest in it and praise Him for who He is and what He did for us all on that cross. He did it ya'll! All because HE LOVES US...even when we didn't love Him! even in our hard times. Even when we feel He doesn't hear us or cares..YES, HE DOES. He wants us to trust Him.