12-6-13 Something so profound and awesome happened to me that I just have to tell it. I saw on my blog that I haven't blogged in over a year! Wow! I purchased a voice recorder several months ago and I've been faithful to try and record and journal on my way to work or when I'm in the car alone and I recorded this experience on it but...it still wasn't enough. I was going to write it down on a piece of paper, type it in my computer and just save it...but,that still wasn't enough. I have to post it somewhere that I knew it could not be deleted where I could come back years from now and still read of this glorious experience and worship in wonder all over again and who knows, maybe someone will stumble across it and be blessed! So many things have been happening in my life. So many things and nothing at the same time! I can't explain it! (smile) But, I count myself still a blessed individual because there is always someone worse off than me. We all have our own battles that we have to contend with, but, this THING has been hard for some time and the clouds are finally clearing. Praise My Lord! Well, a few nights ago, I was awakened out of my sleep in the wee hours of the morning. My mind was so full of thoughts of this and that, I have to make this decision, that decision, what do I choose, which way do I go? How will it work? UGH! I got so SICK of my RUNNING mind. I thought about going into my closet to pray. (this is where I go for quiet time) I literally remember laying there trying to fight my mind by myself b/c my flesh didn't feel like getting out of bed but my closet beckoned and my thoughts raged. I went in and sat. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to begin to even "go in". I was weak and just asked the Holy Spirit to help me. I began to pray in tongues and worship and tears were pouring. As I did this, I began to feel the presence of The Lord so STRONG. I began to decree and declare some things in my life. I began to speak those things that are not as though they were. I began to PROCLAIM what I wanted to happen. As I continued to worship and praise, I saw a suitcase put before me. It was silver like those that the people on the movies carry that were full of MONEY. I reached out my hand and opened the case and began to pass stacks of money around. I gave to this cause, that cause, this person that had a need, that person that had a need. I paid off all my bills and continued to give out of this suitcase. Then it disappeared and a long, heavy sword appeared in front of me. It was very long and beautiful. the handle was beautiful...it was standing straight up in front of me in mid air so I reached out and wrapped my hands around it and began to ask "God, what does this mean?" A sword? As I held it up with my hands around it (as they are holding a sword in the movies when they are preparing to fight) I began to swing it back and forth...Battling with the Sword of the Spirit. The Word of God. I began to put on other pieces of armor. helmet of salvation, shield of faith, waist with truth, breastplate of righteousness, feet with the gospel of peace. ( I am getting more understanding of the sword as I type now). Then the sword went away and the suitcase was back. I don't remember opening it this time but it was there again before me. I remember thinking how all my needs are supplied. Then, something even more beautiful happened. I was suddenly sitting at a table. A long table. One thing I thought was "He has prepared a table for me in the presence of my enemies.(?) I was not at the head of the table but sitting in a beautiful, gorgeous seat on the left side of the table. The table was covered with a white tablecloth and right in front of me was a spread fit for a queen. the plate, goblet, silver wear was all shiny and beautiful and I was being served. YES, SERVED! An angel was standing on my left side and one was on my right side picking up my goblet and pouring the finest wine into it. I remember smiling and feeling so special! Like someone had given me the best GIFT in the world! I began to eat the food and drink. It was so DELICIOUS! I don't know what the food was! LOL! I did know that I was drinking sweet wine. I put my goblet down and looked to my right down the table and there at the head of table sat JESUS! He had a crown on his head and dressed in white. He was watching me smiling. He was happy that I was happy and enjoying my meal. He never stopped smiling or looking at me with love in His eyes. I looked upon Him and bowed my head and thanked Him over and over again weeping, bowing thanking, praising. I was so HAPPY and THANKFUL! Then, the food went away and a tray was sat before me with a cover on it. Again, it was shiny and silver, beautiful. To give you a visual..have you ever spent the night at a hotel and ordered room service or seen someone order room service on tv and it was bought to you on a wheeled cart in a stainless steal tray with a tall, domed lid? I'm not talking about that cheap metal that you get when you are in the hospital! I'm talking about room service at the finest hotel..Well, this was finer and shinier than that! It was placed right in front of me at the table. I remember wondering what it was. Dessert? I reached up and lifted the dome. I can't tell you exactly WHAT was under that dome but I just knew and I began to weep as understanding began to flow over me. There under that dome, on that tray was all my prayers. Everything I had ever asked for, prayed about, sought God about. And what made me weep even harder was also under that tray was my DESIRES. My deep, heart felt desires that only God REALLY knows. They were there too. He heard them and kept every one and He was answering them for ME. FOR ME! The very depth of what I was feeling and the KNOWING of just HOW MUCH JESUS LOVES ME had me so humble and weak that I turned my head to the right again to look upon Him and could barely see Him through my tears. All I could do was bow down and worship Him and praise Him and thank Him and thank Him and thank Him and worship Him even more. He never said anything but He didn't have to. He kept the same smile on His face that was so FULL OF PURE LOVE FOR ME THAT I COULD HARDLY STAND IT. Just LOVE. I praised Him and thanked Him even more,even as the angels readied me to go back to bed. I literally saw them place a cover/ white cover over me as I laid down. In my natural body, I had come out of my closet and got back in my bed. Now, I thought..Did I actually witness that? Did that just happen? Was it a dream? no. I was fully awake the whole time. Was it a vision? I don't know. Actually, to me it does not matter because I know I had an encounter with My Heavenly Daddy. I went in that closet one way and I came back out completely different. All I know was that it was BEAUTIFUL. JESUS IS BEAUTIFUL. He loves each and every one of us and no matter what, He looks at us ALL with that same sweet smile that is FULL of love and He LOVES to see us happy and blessed. THE FATHER LOVES US SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. There are no words that can describe that love. All we need to do is receive it. yes, even bask and rest in it and praise Him for who He is and what He did for us all on that cross. He did it ya'll! All because HE LOVES US...even when we didn't love Him! even in our hard times. Even when we feel He doesn't hear us or cares..YES, HE DOES. He wants us to trust Him.

A Time of Reflection

Wow. I looked at my blog and noticed that it has been a LONG time since I've updated it! (smile) I am still journaling but so many things have changed and gone on! For one, I have changed. My focus now is finding out my true destiny and ways to serve My Master and Creator. I am working on keeping myself clean. My heart clean. My thoughts clean. UH no. Not perfect at all but I've found that I'm focusing more on these things. See, God moved alot of my "crutches" from around me so I could focus more on Him. At first, I didn't see it as such and even when I did realize what He had done, I still had to adjust to having my "training wheels" removed. When God moves people from around you that you've leaned on, it's for our good. He wants us to focus on HIM and not run to THEM everytime you have a problem. He wants a deeper relationship with me and I guess He, being my Heavenly Father knew that He had to put me on an island all alone so I could just focus on Him. Now that I look back, I THANK HIM. He is SOOO good to me. I've discovering my uniqueness. My quirks. My ways and just how different I am. LOL. I love it. I love being me...IN CHRIST. I'm edgy and can be outspoken (in a nice way). God has been dealing with me for YEARS about taking the limits off and stepping out of the box. Do you know I have not done it to the fullness YET? LOL! Well, stay tuned...I think some things are about to change. It's all about Him anyway.....right?

The Limitless Lady!

Lesson Re-learned

I am so thankful that God is patient with us and loves us so much that when we need a "refresher" course in this thing called "life", He will give it to us with love. God had to "re-teach" me that I need to take one day at a time. I am a BIG Dreamer. I dream large because I believe that God can do it...However, sometimes it can consume us to the point that we are so focused on our future that we don't enjoy today or we get out of timing with God trying to rush. He helped me to realize that HE is the God of my tomorrow. HE has my life and my times in HIS hands...what's my rush? As long as He is leading and guiding my steps, I'm not missing anything! Here I am frustrated that this isn't happening or that isn't happening fast enough and that left me unfulfilled and feeling like a failure. This isn't God's will for us. He let me know that I should be taking one day at a time in Him and taking the time to smell the roses. This doesn't mean not to work toward my dreams but it means that in the "meantime" from today until the vision is reality, I can enjoy the journey..plus, He can use me mightily on the way. So, don't be like me. Don't be so focused on tomorrow (that's not promised by the way) that you waste today that the Lord has made! Be glad and rejoice in it! God has something wonderful in store for you each and everyday. Don't miss HIM.

Limitless

My Dad

I recently lost a very important person to me: My Dad. Throughout his short sickness and death, God's glory was ever present. Even now, after the funeral, whenever I have a weepy moment, I feel His comfort all over and around me. The Holy Spirit is truly a comforter. I love my dad and he was truly a GOOD DADDY. He loved us dearly and he TAUGHT US many life lessons that I feel are not taught as much now or with as much emphasis. He made us work and he made us save. NO. No blowing money on foolish things like kids do today. He made us to get bank accounts and we had to get our school supplies FIRST before we spent it on wants. He taught us how to be diligent and to work hard. He taught us to be responsible. When I was growing up, some of these lessons were hard and many times I thought dad was mean, but in reality, he was teaching us and now that I am grown with a family of my own, I appreciate all his life lessons.
My dad was a man of strong integrity and character. You always knew where you stood with him. There was never any confusion. The world has truly lost an old school teacher who did not believe in short cuts or deception, but honesty and hard work. He will truly be missed. And, although earth might not have his wisdom and strength here, it lives on in our hearts.
We are his legacy and every heart that he touched carries it. Heaven has gained a warrior!

CONSTIPATION!

On the way back from bible study, the Lord dropped in me the revelation that sometimes out spirit gets CONSTIPATED! When the body gets constipated, we are steadily putting stuff in, eating and drinking but NOTHING is coming out! We have waste to get rid of the harmful toxins in our body. If we become constipated, we are unable to get rid of these toxin and they can actually back up in our body and cause all kinds of havoc to our system. It literally begins to poison us. Left unchecked, it can KILL us.
That's how it is with our spirits. I can think of two different ways right off the bat! How about going to church and bible study every single sunday and during the week. Getting all that word. Storing it up...but, we are never DOING the word or SHARING that word with someone else. We don't pour blessings into others with the blessed word that we received. We don't encourage others, pray for others and walk in the word, but every time the church doors are open...WE ARE THERE! HUH? When Jesus healed, He felt virtue go out of Him. When we are actually ministering to others, we are literally giving others what Christ has given us. We are sharing Him with others so they can be blessed. When we do this, we are able to receive times of refreshing from the Lord..But if we hold it in and NEVER do anything with it and not benefiting from it ourselves, it becomes an offense unto us. It will judge us. We begin to become toxic and when times of the refreshing from the Lord comes, we are so full of toxins, we can't receive! (I hope this makes sense! LOL)
Another way to look at it is holding on to sin, grudges and things in our lives that should not be there and not crying out to God for deliverance. We are literally poisoning ourselves with these toxins in our system. David said, when he kept silent, his bones groaned within him. (I looked all over for that scripture but couldn't find it...ok bible scholars, enlighten me) When he didn't cry out to God and get rid of all that was within, he begin to get weak and sick and depressed! Only when He began to cry out to God with repentance and worship and praise was he able to get rid of the toxins and receive the refreshing from the Lord. Which are you? Which were you? I can truly say I was both and God delivered. See, we can't hold sin in our hearts and not go to God for Him to cleanse us and think it won't begin to poison us, it will. And, we can't continue to hear the word and receive the Word and not allow it to CHANGE US. It will be that same word that will one day judge us. I'm just keeping it real! Let's keep the body and the spirit healthy by continuously flushing it with the Word of God and Greater Works!

BE BLESSED!
THE LIMITLESS LADY!

Time For Bed!

I remember when I was young, newly married, new baby. I was exhausted all the time. That was understandable when she was new born but when she was going on two years old, i was still tired and exhausted! I felt like I had not time for myself nor time for my husband. I was young and it just seemed easier that our daughter sleep with us. Sometimes we would be trying to go to sleep and she would be wide away playing in our faces or coo-ing! I remember talking to my mom one night, totally exhausted when she gave me some advice that literally changed my life..LOL. She said "That baby needs a bed time! And, get her out of your bed!" My husband thought it was the hardest thing! I mean, the other bedroom seemed so far away! What if she was afraid or woke up during the night wanting us? My mom suggested that I get a christian CD with soft music or children's music and play it for her in her own room in her own bed with a night light one. So, that is what I did. Put the CD on continuous play, tucked her in and went to our room. Thus it began. After nights and nights of patiently walking her back to her own room and her own bed and reassuring her, she finally stayed and slept all night and there were no more problems after that! I realized just by giving her a set bedtime, I had more time to wind down from my hectic day and relax. I had more conversations with my husband and we were able to spend quality alone time together. I was relaxed and at peace and being that my daughter had a set routine of bed every night, her mood was even better! I love my mom for that advice and I pass it on whenever I can. Don't get discouraged when you are trying to move the baby out of your bed or give him/her a bed time and they don't want to go, patience and persistence will surely pay off if you just hold on!! BE BLESSED!!

THE LIMITLESS LADY

Moving Forward!

Today I traveled to Rocky Mount to speak at a Women's Ministry Meeting regarding my book. I had no clue what I was going to say at all! LOL. When my sister asked me to speak a while back, of course my flesh hesitated but at the same time, I knew that I could NOT stall out or draw back now. God is moving His people into new territory. Scared or not...I'm going with Him! My comfort zone is no longer comfortable but my comfort zone is not in the will of God! I accepted it knowing that God was going to be with me. I encourage anyone who wants to walk in their purposes of God to not let fear stop them from their destiny!
One thing that I want to stress is how much it is not about us...but about the cause of Christ. We are not our own, we are bought with a price and that price was the Blood of Jesus. We belong to Him. Our reasonable sacrifice is presenting our bodies to Him to be used for His Glory.
I was blessed today and I thank God for using me to bless others.