Excited about the New Year!!!

I am really excited about the New Year. In years past, for some reason, crossing over into a New Year made me uneasy. It was scary to me b/c we were crossing over into the unknown. What would this new year bring? I thank God for a change of mind. I hold no fear whatsoever of the new year...only expectation. God is good. He will continue to be good. God told me months ago that no matter how it looked, the seasons had changed for me. I believe that. It does not matter that the calendar will flip to another year b/c our calendar is not His. His timing is not ours. It's as simple as that. The calendar is for ME or US to mark time...not God. So, what I have declared months ago...I'M STILL DECLARING. My expectation comes from being one day closer to the manifestation of what God has already told me was mine. Thank you God for the season change. Thank you for the season of Manifestation! Thank you for the rain!! As I look back on my year it seems as if I have taken one step forward and 5 back. I've made some mistakes and missed a few blessings but guess what? I repented and continued to take my one step forward no matter how little..I've made progress and I thank God for even that. I can truly say that I am not where I used to be and every single time discouragement knocked at my door, God was right there to lift me up! NEVER has He failed me! So, if I were to say any encouraging word to anyone that might read this...it would be.. not to look at 2010 as a failure! If you've moved an inch, you made progress. If you failed at something or something didn't come to pass that you thought would and you still did NOT give up..pat yourself on the back, Give God glory and keep it moving!! Also know that just because it's the end of OUR calendar year...it's not the end of God's!! He holds time in His hands!! We sometimes give ourselves unrealistic deadlines and want to speed up things when God might want to take us at a slower pace so He can prepare us and teach us some things!! And, if you've missed any timing..God is FAITHFUL to restore ALL. As long as you have breath in your body and continue to serve and obey God..you keep your hope alive! He's a God of not only a 2nd chance but countless.

Loving The Quiet

I love to be quiet. I love quiet. There is nothing like QUIET! LOL!! Consistent quiet..no. I'm a wife and mother. I love my family. I love the sound of their laughter and happiness. I can even deal with the disagreements and the yelling to a certain degree. That's called life. However, there must be a time of QUIET. Time to sit in silence and meditate, read the word and reflect on the goodness of God or time to be quiet and just think....NOTHING. Its important. None of us can remain in our sound mind if we have the tv and radio constantly blasting or always talking on the phone or with our friends. We can never regroup and reenergize if we are always running to and from and filling up our schedules with busy NOTHINGNESS. In the end, where does that get us? What are we chasing? Even as young as my 38 years, sometimes I long for the times of simplicity. The times where families sat down and ate dinner together. The times where the children had daily chores to do. The time where families had to grow their own food and raise their own livestock. The times where neighbors knew each other and watched out for each other and the whole neighborhood raised a child and people had good, sound morals! I will gladly take those times over the ones we live in now where there is an excess of greed, coldness and people that are just so busy that life is passing them by but they don't even realize it!! Slow down people!!! Relect, breathe, pray, be thankful. Be quiet and hear God. Don't get caught up in the everyday busy that pulls you away from God.

Thankful!

You know what? I'm sitting here looking around reflecting on how GOOD GOD IS and how thankful I am to be right where I am at this very moment in time. Now, if I thought hard enough, I can come up with something that I'd wish I'd done or could go or yadda, yadda, yadda...but I choose not to. I CHOOSE to be THANKFUL. I refuse to think too deeply about anything at this moment. I just CHOOSE to relax in the fact that things could be worse and in all honesty, I have NOTHING to complain about. GOD IS GOOD. He WILL pefect all that concerns me. He loves me and promises to always be with me! Hey! Wow! I'm mighty blessed! How about you?

One of my friends read the poem I posted a few nights ago and she called me "deep". She said that she understood it but maybe some people wouldn't. LOL. I read it again and I guess that's right. She also asked me was I talking about myself? LOL. Hmmm.....no, not that night, but I'm sure it was me at some point and time. Actually, that night my hubby came home from work. He didn't give me my hello kiss and I said something to him about it. We were fine. No anger involved. When I started to type other things came to mind and out popped the poem. I shared it b/c it is/was relevant! If we are brutally honest with ourselves, we can probably say that one time or another we came home from work(or wherever) tired, broke down, irritated and just didn't feel like being bothered! You might have a spouse or a family or a pet at home but to be honest, you just wanted peace and quiet! LOL. IT'S TRUE! COME ON! BE REAL! LOL!! Whether you are married with no children, married with children, a single parent with children or even if you live alone, you have kept up the 'pretense' of a smile being on your face while in the pubic eye when you weren't feeling it and then got behind closed doors and let the 'real you' of the moment come out. Guess what it's called? BEING HUMAN! LOL.(but also, not being prayed UP!) What WE(yes me too) must learn to do is to pray on our way home. Ask God to shake off the days stresses and allow us to breathe and rest in Him so that when we get home, we will love on our family/spouse/ourselves the way they/we deserve and to be mentally prepared to meet their needs. We should never be called out because we show strangers every courtesy but not our flesh and blood and this happens ALOT, whether you are in the Body of Christ or not. God wants us to be real at all times. My prayer is that we grow in God and get consistent in our emotions and be loving at all times. That's a PROCESS but if we are willing to yield to it and work at it ON PURPOSE, we'll see a change!

Hard day, feeling tired, not wanting to be bothered,
Get home, want to rest but see the kids you fathered
Wanting hugs, wanting attention, want to show daddy their "A"
But daddy ignores them thinking "I had such a hard day".

Wife made dinner, hot plate on the table,
Waiting for the hello Kiss.
Instead Daddy sits down and begins to eat
The whole family he dismiss!

Wife feels unappreciated
Children feel unloved
Daddy takes a shower and goes right to bed
Family ignored.

Next thing you know
Wife is upset
And kids are fighting and calling names
Daddy is wondering why they trippin'
Have they gone insane?

The problem was
The atmosphere of love was set
When Daddy got home
But when he decided he didn't have time for family
And wanted to be alone;
Peace got up and gone.

Let's pay attention
Fathers as well as Mothers
Husbands and well as wives,
We must be aware and on our guard
So satan won't come in and divide!

Remember,
Charity begins at home and family comes first
Not the other way around.
It's not right or fair to be Mr.or Ms. Charisma
At work and church or in front of others
And run your family in the ground!

They deserve your best, your time, your patience
Your love.
You have a responsibility toward them!
And when you make sure their needs are met,
You'll find more peace within.

Be Blessed!!!!

Prayer Answering God!

God is SOOO concerned about us!!! Yesterday I went through a hard "patch" and I had to fight and pray my way through. At that particular time I had not said anything to anyone but God about my struggle. It was ROUGH. My feelings were hurt so I cried a little and I prayed and then I began to proclaim the Word and not back down from what I KNOW God called me to do!!! I left it alone and went on but I sought God on whether or not I was in the right position and doing the right thing. This morning as I sat at my desk I got an unexpected call from A Woman of God (actually 2) that spoke to the VERY THING that I had battled against the previous day!! God blessed me and let me know how very much He cares for me. Yeah, we know God loves us but it sure feels good when He shows up and shows up like He does!!! For Example: WE can be married and we know our hubby/wife loves us but when they bring home flowers or chocolates or a beautiful card...that just makes you feel GOOD!! Extra Special and that's how I felt today. I LOVE YOU LORD!!! Thank you for being a prayer answering God!!

To Speak or Not To Speak...That is the Question!

God dealt with me about an issue this weekend and it was to speak or not to speak regarding a certain issue. We simply must pray and listen to the Holy Spirit when He guides us to open up our mouths about something God has shown us REGARDLES of the backlash and what people may think. Now, some people will say, and I've heard these words..."You should keep your mouth closed and just pray." Or "When God gives you something to say, if it's in the right timing, that person won't even get mad." Now, both of these may be true IN SOME INSTANCES, but you better know that sometimes when God requires us to open up our mouths and speak people won't like it!! Think about Jesus when He walked the earth. People were so mad that He was calling our their sin that they plotted to kill Him and sought to stone Him countless times!! When God shows us an area that concerns us and especially when He shows us the enemies plot, you better believe He wants us to open our mouths against the enemy AND be in prayer! I'm so thankful for God opening up my eyes to this situation because the enemy WILL NOT WIN. God revealed him and let me know that I needed to be alert and ready to war. And, through Him, victory is assured. So, seek God, hear Him and when He requires you to speak...OPEN YOUR MOUTH. I did this today and no, the person did not like what I was saying but I knew it was the truth and I knew that it had to be done. So, I take the backlash with peace. One thing I do know is that God is with me.

Thankful!!

Today I am just THANKFUL for the little things as well as the big things. I'm just all around, deep down in my soul...THANKFUL! God is good! This morning I came downstairs and for about an hour I just sat, not doing anything but just being THANKFUL. I wasn't praying, praising, meditating, I was just BEING. BEING thankful, BEING quiet. BEING at rest and it was GOOD.

Later on I decided to take my two daughters and my 3neices who had spent the night, out for a while and then I had planned to meet their dad to drop them off. Well, I got about 5 miles away and the alarm came on in my car saying my tire pressure was low! i pulled over and got out and my right back tire was whisling b/c the air was rushing out! It was rainy and cold and I have no CLUE how to change a tire!! So, I turned around and coasted back home praying that my tire would not go completely flat b/c i knew that I couldn't drive on my rim and I had 5 girls in my car and it was cold and rainy outside! As soon as I got back home, I came in, made a call. when I walked back outside my tire was completely flat! Wow! Just in time! God is good!

then, when I called ROADSIDE ASSISTANCE, I was told that tire repairs was not covered under my plan! WHAT? The number one problem on the roadside is TIRES! So, I had to pay. $85 and about 1hr 1/2 later, my tire was plugged and fixed. It was too late to go anywhere so I came on back in my house, put my pj's on and relaxed.

I guess I said all that to say this...although my day didn't go as I planned...I am thankful that we got home before we were stranded on the side of the road waiting for roadside asst. I am thankful that I had the $85 dollars to get everything fixed, even though my plan didn't cover it and I had to wait for him to get here. I am thankful now that everything is fixed and I could wait safely with the girls at home. So,I was thankful over the small things. I didn't get done what I needed to do...but hey, I got back home and got back in my PJ's and relaxed on my couch and the girls are able to play with their cousins longer.

I really think my day went as smoothly as it and I didn't overract and panic like possible b/c I had that quiet time to reflect on just being THANKFUL and knowing that it does not always have to be my way or go the way that we planned. Just be THANKFUL over even the smallest of things, be flexible and stop being hard on yourself. All things work together for our good.

I guess

Dance, Dance, Dance!!

I posted on my facebook page this evening a small part of MaryMary's song. It says "Maybe you don't understand why I gotta dance. There was something that had me bound but it's over now! Imma throw my hands up, wave 'em all in the air, cause all I wanna do is dance, dance dance!!" Praise God!! When I think about that song.. I wonder...when exactly do you dance? When you SEE the deliverance OR when you BELIEVE DELIVERANCE? It's not always the same thing! See, when we are delivered from something, the evidence of it might not be right then but in FAITH on who God says He is..Well, we need to dance then!! It might not be an all out run but if you even tap yo' feet with BELIEF that you are healed, THAT is accounted as faith. So saints...I'm tapping my feet, praising God, raising my hands and smiling because BY FAITH...those things that had me bound are OVER NOW. I choose to be free based on the Word of God that says I'm free! What about you? Let's stop giving the enemy so much glory and Glorify God so the enemy can be defeated!

Power HAS Changed Hands!!!

God has been doing so many things this week that He has blown my mind!! Earlier this week a friend of mine sent an email asking if I would like to attend a "Power Must Change Hands" service this morning. 9am. Well, it was not at her church or my church and I am often very WARY about attending other churches without prayer but when I read her email, something pulled in my spirit. The last time I felt this, God did something MIGHTY. So, well, I prayed about it but the feeling in my belly did not change and He truly did something mighty today! So much confirming Word came forth...all that God had put in my spirit all week had prepared me for this morning. I love Him!! He is SOO wonderful!! Look out!! Manifestation times ARE HERE. Look OUT for my testimonies!!!

David

Wow. God is so awesome! As we travel on our journey through this life, we are going to make some mistakes. It's inevitable. When we are in Christ, we repent and go but one thing the devil wants us to do is to hold on to mistakes so he can bring condemnation upon us. Even when we repent and God has forgotten all about it, the enemy is relentless in continuously bringing our mistake up in our face. Here is where we must diligently fight with the Word of God and always walk in the security of who God is and who we are in Him. God is so awesome and I love Him so much b/c all this week He has been showing me and teaching me what MY identity is IN HIM. One thing about David is that through ALL the mistakes He made, he always stuck to God and ALWAYS remembered WHO he was and WHOSE he was. There was no doubt whatsoever with him! Sometimes the enemy will play on our minds and emotions so much that we will begin to doubt our status with God. Wait! He Loves us and just because we mess up, like all along God knew we would do, that does not change who and what He called us to be, our destiny or assignment. Who He called us to be before we were even formed in our mother's wombs. Always remember who you are in God!! That was one thing about DAvid. He remained steadfast concerning WHO he was in GOD. I was in the bath tonight and that word popped in my spirit again. STEADFAST. wow. I'm going to meditate on that. Many times in the Word, DAvid was depressed or felt down. Most of that was because of how his sin distanced him from God and how he felt disconnected from him but NEVER because He doubted his position in God. That wasn't pride, it was just his confidence and security in God. wow. That is profound. (oh, and the other reason why I feel like he felt this way is because Saul just wouldn't leave him alone!!! LOL) Just a little humor but I'm going to mediatate on David. The example of his life brought me to a deeper understanding today. Thank you Jesus!

God Has Done It Again!

Wow!! God is so awesome! There is nothing or no one that compares to Him. He has come again today and confirmed Himself yet again! He have me a good talking to this morning and I'm loving Him for it. He is such an on time God. Once again, it is WAIT. Now, I will be honest, I don't wait well. I hate to wait. I'm the Let's Go...Let's get on with it GIRL! LOL!! It is hard for me to tarry and wait for anything but I tell you, this must be one lesson that the Lord wants me to learn! On prayer call this morning, the woman of God spoke of God saying wait on Him and to things His way and not our own way. When I got to work and pulled up my devotion from today....same thing. God said through His servants that all His promises are Yes and Amen and we need to rest in the assurance that even though it seems like we have been waiting a long time for God's promises to come to pass, His Word does NOT come back void! It will accomplish ALL that He sent it, no matter what our natural eyes see! God is further confirming what He said to me yesterday. His timing! His way..not ours!! HE IS GOOD!!! We just need to remain faithful to Him. We cannot let go of Hope no matter what. My prayer is that I REST in Him. That I stop feeling 'imagined' pressure and ENJOY THE JOURNEY, which is what God wants us to do!! Enjoy the Journey!! PRAISE GOD.

A Prayer Answering God

I thank God. Today I prayed a prayer on the way to work and before noon God had answered my prayer and THEN CONFIRMED HIMSELF. I am so thankful. He is always speaking to us; the question is: Are we on the right frequency? The right channel? Wow. I am in awe of God b/c He let me know today how His timing is SOOO important and how years before we got to the place we are in now, He was putting things in order for us to help along this journey. He is AMAZING. God also let me know that every gift from Him is perfect and sometimes, we get in such a hurry for Him to release stuff to us but we are not yet ready! He has to get us ready so that when He releases that thing...that good and perfect thing..we will know how to act and know what to do. I LOVE HIM. Yes. I do agree that sometimes we 'miss' things and God's timing in what He has for us, but He is sooo faithful and He loves us so much that He will continue to work with us so that when He brings that thing around again, we will be ready.

Long Time...No Blog!

I have not updated my blog in a while due to SEVERE computer problems! Whew! But, praise God, I appear to be up and running now. One thing that I have learned thru this "process" is although the enemy tries to aggravate it, He can't STOP IT. What God is doing in my life is signed, sealed and WILL BE DELIVERED!! It will not be delayed, postponed nor it will be late. I am walking in Expection of the Manifestation of All that God has promised me!!! I have a hope that God will perfect All that concerns me and you should too! That's a promise to us in His Word. Be Blessed!!

The Limitless Lady!

Watching Birds Worship

Have you ever watched birds guide though the sky? I LOVE to see birds fly. I love to watch them glide through the air without flapping their wings. Every time I see that I know they are worshipping God by just being who they are. They glide upon the wind and the breeze with their arms stretched out like they don't have a care in the world and they just let the momentum carry them. AWESOME! I've seen them do the same in the rain and when it is about to storm. No matter the weather. They glide. They flap their wings in worship. I love it!

A Good Lesson

I had a 'teachable' moment today at work. I have been at my job for almost 6 years. Well, my calculator decided not to work anymore. I had to get a new one. Of course it was a newer, more sophisticated model and it didn't do all of the things my old calculator did. Or, should I say, it did all the things my old calculator did but it was on a more sophisticated scale and I just couldn't figure it out!!! I experimented, I pulled out the manual..didn't understand it, I called on a few coworkers to help.. I complained to everyone that would listen...Get this...I actually considered trading my NEW calculator with one of my coworkers to get the OLDER one that I was familiar with....
I went to lunch. When I got back to work and was ready to 'use' the calculator again, I found it wasn't on. I flicked the switch on and off several times, I unplugged it, plugged it back up. I even took it to some one elses desk and plugged it in. Nothing. From there I went to my Supervisor's office and plugged it in. Nothing. Everything on my desk was working perfectly. What was wrong? The calculator was fine all morning!!
Well, it dawned on me clearly the POWER OF THE WORDS OF MY MOUTH!! I sat there and reflected on how I 'cursed' that calculator all morning. (I didn't 'curse' at it but I talked negative to it and about it all morning) I complained about it..I got mad at it. I was so busy I did not want to take the time to figure out how it worked. I even considered trading a new model in for the old. Wow. I had to repent. If you didn't get it yet...let me explain. How many times does God try to elevate us to another level? Take us to a new place? Because it's a new atmosphere that we are not familiar with, we want to actually go back to our comfort zone. When things on the new level doesn't seem to be working right or we get frustrated with it, we beging to think and talk negative against it. We begin to doubt and instead of going forward, we just feel more familiar with just going back to where we were and what we're used to. OUCH!! I can go on and on but God was really showing me how speaking and thinking negative about anything can KILL IT DEAD. That brand NEW calculator died because I cursed it!!! LOL!! I know that sounds extreme...but hey...it was a teachable moment and when we continue to talk negative about any person or thing or movement, it will eventually wither and die. Thank you Lord for showing me this lesson. I have been meditating on it all afternoon.

A Real Friend

I have always prayed and asked God to move people out of my life that should not be in my life and connect me with people that should be in my life. I was so blessed by a very dear friend of mine today! I have known her for over 10 years and about 4 years ago she moved away. We don't talk every day. We don't talk every week. Sometimes it will be month or more before we talk but it seems like everytime I am going thru something my phone will ring and it will be her and God will use her to speak a word to me that will turn my whole thinking process around! She testifies the same thing of me. I thank God for her! Yes. God can use anyone but I thank Him for answering my prayer of putting special people in my life that help me along this journey! God know who to use to bless you!

Timing

I haven't written in a few days. Whoa! Honestly, I have had so much going on that I have walked past this computer and kept on going! LOL. Yesterday I was having a 'moment'. I asked God some questions! As I laid on my bed with my Bible lying beside me...I decided to open it! LOL. It fell open to Joel 2. Whoa. God led me to this same scripture a few years ago. God said He would restore unto me the years that the locust has eaten!!!! He reminded me again of that very scripture as an answer to the question that I asked Him. He is such a LOVING GOD!!! To bring it home even more I flipped the tv and stopped on Joel Olsteen. I stopped. Awesomely he was speaking on exactly what I was questioning God about!!!! Whoa AGAIN!!! My mind was blown! Praise God!! But, wait, God it's been about TWO YEARS since you sent me that scripture!!! When am I going to see it manifest!!! Ahhhh!!! People, God is all about timing and 100% of the time, HIS TIME AIN'T OURS!! We can fret, cry, pout and make a complete mess trying to make something happen in OUR timing but until GOD SAYS SO....it will NOT happen. Now...I don't care what the world around you is doing. And trust me...the world around you can seem to be running circles around you and applying pressure but if you know you've done all that you can..you need to just stand and trust and see the salvation of the Lord. Now, I'm not saying stand and wait for your blessing to fall out of the sky..faith without works is dead but if you are working, standing and believing..God will come to see about you. He has perfect timing in all things and if you have entrusted yourself in His hands...He is NOT going to let you miss ANYTHING you are supposed to get! HE has a plan. There is always a reason why He does what He does and it's not to harm us. So stop fretting. God has you. Keep moving, keep hoping, keep believing.. make sure you're doing what God has told you to do!! Don't do something because everyone else is doing it! Don't expect Him to bless you on Glory Lane when you are supposed to be on Praise Lane!!! Seek Him, Find out where you are supposed to be and work to getting there! The blessing is in the going in faith...the blessing is in the place that HE has SENT you!! Again...His timing is not ours. Let's learn to wait on God!!!

Wanna Take A Break From Your Destiny?

Sunday, I started watching a movie. I didn't finish it but it was an action movie where a man was called to be a "Librarian". But, he was a "special librarian". Only He could do that specific job and his job was to guard and protect precious and valuable artifacts of World History. His job required him to travel all over the world to exotic and dangerous places because there was always evil trying to steal these artifacts to use them for evil. Well, he got tired. He broke down and told his mentor that the job he had was preventing him from having a normal life. He wanted to be settled and he was tired of travel. He was BURNED OUT and he was ready to walk away. Well, he decided to 'get away' from his calling. He went to the other side of the world to get away from his life and guess what? A situation in which only he could handle met him there! He met a woman that also had a particular calling. I don't recall what it was but he asked her..."Don't you ever get tired of it? This life?" She said "NO! Of course not! It is my destiny and you cannot run from your destiny." Now, you might have not seen anything in that but I did. The gifts of God are without repentance. We are all called to do a special thing for the Kingdom of God. If we allow ourselves to get off focus, the enemy will have us to believe that we are not effective and there is more to life than the path that God has laid out for us! He will make you want to quit and give up the job God has called you to do. If you have answered God's call and begun walking in it, it's a part of you. You can't run away from it and no matter where you go...there should always be situations where your gift will enhance your surroundings. Are you gonna run the other way?(Don't be like JONAH!!) What I further saw here was that he was just tired and weary. He was burned out. If He was a Christian, his job would have been to run to God for the refreshing that he needed. Not run away from the call. We all get tired sometimes. We get discouraged, burned out, drained. We need a time of refreshing that only God can give and if we wait on him, He will send it. (Remember Elijah). We need to make sure that we are having private one on one time with the Father so He can give us the fuel we need to continue running this race. The lady in the movie had the right attitude. It was "Yes. I get tired. Yes. I get weary. Dog Gone it! Sometimes I want to quit! BUT, I won't! I can't! It is my destiny!!" I didn't finish the movie. It got kinda crazy so I turned but I felt like I got what I was supposed to get....thank you Lord for using a movie to speak to me...

The Limitless Lady
P>S> there are scriptures I'm going to go back in to reference but I have to leave..on my way to church!

Creature or Creator?

REMEMBER: NEVER worship a "creature" more than the CREATOR! God is a jealous God and will have no other Gods before HIM. (Exodus 20:5) Jesus went to the cross so that we can have a personal relationship with Him. DEVELOP IT! He has given us Awesome Men and Women of God to lead us and guide us and to help enhance our walk and we should honor them as such but none of these people should take the place of knowing God and going to Him for yourself and learning to be led by the Holy Spirit within you.

Remember, people may have great intentions but they are in this flesh just like you and me and are subject to error, pride and yes....spiritual falls. We cannot afford to be spiritually lazy and not cultivate a personal relationship with our Lord! We have to study to show ourselves approved and know how to rightly divide the Word of truth so that we will be able to stand no matter what storm comes! (II Timothy 2:15)The only perfect person is Christ. It is Him we should be following....not man!

Seeking Jesus!

My blog post is simple today.....I'm going to do more of seeking Jesus! He is EVERYTHING! When things are turned upside down in your life, you have alot of things going on, you need direction or even if you just need a refreshing for God....seek Jesus! He is the ONLY ONE who can supply your every need! When things seem to go crazy in our lives, it seems like the first thing we do is begin to pull away from God....that's when we should draw closer!! This was pretty much of the sermon today in church and I was blessed by it! So many people are going through so much but my prayer today is that your heart be turned toward our Heavenly Father for all of your needs and that He lights a spark of fire in your soul that will make you seek Him all the more so that He can restore joy, strength and HOPE!!! PRAISE GOD!!!

The Limitless Lady!

Praying for Purpose...

This might sound like something I have typed about before in by blog. Somewhere deep down, I know this will not be the last time. I am seeking God for my Destiny. My purpose. One thing I know is that I don't want to leave this world without doing what God put me here to do! I also know that whatever that call is and whatever it entails, whether it be large or small, difficult or easy, therein lies my ultimate peace. I have always maintained and will continue to maintain that if you are in the perfect will of God and doing exactly what He called you to do and you KNOW THAT YOU KNOW THAT YOU KNOW that you were called to do that particular thing...then no one or nothing can move you from that spot. No matter what storm comes against you, if you love the Lord, you WILL STICK AND STAY WITH YOUR ASSIGNMENT. I think many are up and down because they either don't know exactly what their assignment is or they are doing it but have alot of doubt if what they are doing is where God will have them to be. I don't know about you but I don't want to waste my time anymore with what I think and what I feel....pleasing people or just doing something just to be doing it. I WANT MY GOD GIVEN DESTINY AND NOTHING ELSE. It's time out for time wasting. God has given us each a task......seek Him to find out what yours is! Be Blessed!!!

The Limitless Lady

Jesus!! That's It! That's All!

Wow!! I've just come back from our 4 day revival and I'm telling you....I've been revived! God is SOOO Good! You would think that the last night of the revival would've been a shouting, hollering, turning flips in the aisle good time! But, guess what? Tonight was a quiet storm!! It was amazing. I sat in awe and worship of a beautiful, beautiful move of God. God did something so profound tonight that I think if there were people in there that were not connected, they completely missed it. Praise God I didn't. I got it all and am going to meditate on it even more! The Man of God preached Christ and Him Crucified. (I Corin.2: 1,2) Church and the way we've worshipped has become so distorted. So WATERED DOWN. So LIMITED. Seems like there is alot of preaching going on but how much is done on JESUS? What is being said? We hear alot about prosperity and other things but what about the simplicity of just JESUS! Wow! I was BLOWN AWAY and fell in love with Jesus all over again. The way He orchestrated tonight was perfect. I know so many lives were changed on tonight...WOW! Something so simple as the Name of Jesus holds the power to raise the dead, heal your body, heal your mind, heal your soul, solve your problems, save your soul, give you hope, give you peace, love you, care for you, work things our on your behalf....the benefits in that name are LIMITLESS. LET'S GET BACK TO PREACHING JESUS! THAT'S IT! THAT'S ALL!!!! If just that is done...what a mighty FORCE the church would be! BLESS THE LORD!!!!

Motives

A few years back I had an almost constant prayer and that was "Lord, help me to always know my heart's motives." Why? Because I was going through a time in my life that I was questioning motives of people around me and I myself just wanted to be REAL. With that said..Let me ask you a few of the questions that I ask myself(because I still do). "Why are you doing this?" "What is the TRUE reason?" (Remember, yesterday I said that I often tell my children and myself "To thine own self be true." If you can't be real with yourself.....HOUSTON, WE HAVE A PROBLEM!!!) What is the real reason why we do some of the things we do? To impress? To please? To be mean? To get pats on the back? To be seen of Man? Why? Are we getting close to him or her to get them to trust you so you can be nosy? So you can undermine and deceive? Stab in the back? Get ahead? Make ourselves look bigger or better than what we really are? Do we ever stop to ask ourselves that question remembering that God knows our TRUE motives? Do we remember that He is a discerner of hearts? Do we check ourselves when we know our motives are not pure? Man looks on the outer appearance but our Heavenly Father looks at our hearts!!! Man might sometimes reward you for what they think is a "good deed" but God won't always do so.....WHY? Because He knows the REAL DEAL!!

So, the thought for today is "Seen of Man or Seen of God?"

Called to the Carpet!!

I had a wonderful day today. As I sat at my desk I had to smile because I was thinking of my girls and then my thoughts switched to how I "call them to the carpet" when they've done something wrong or when they have an attitude that is not right. Sometimes they will deny that the problem is there when I know better!! I realize they just don't want to face the truth or accept their wrong so they try to hide it! So, my favorite thing to say to them is "It is never good to lie at all but it's even worse to lie to yourself!!" Then I will follow up with the quote (I don't know who said this...) "TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE!" Anyway, I said all of that to say this.....Isn't that how God does us??? We know when we're wrong! When our attitudes stink and we've wronged someone! And even if we don't and the Holy Spirit "calls us to the carpet" about it ...there is no need to hide it or pretend it's not there! "TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE!" God knows and He just wants us to see our sin like He sees it so we can repent and move on.....

Be Blessed!

Filthy Rags!!

What an AWESOME GOD we serve!!! I've been thinking of the scripture "What is Man that thou art mineful of him!" Psalm 8:4. Think about that thang for a minute!! I have thought about it ALOT lately. God can not be contained. He is bigger and better and greater than ANYTHING we could EVER imagine...YET...He thinks of us, He loves us..He CARES for us...! Even though our righteousness is as filthy rags...we are still vessels that can carry HIS ANOINTING...HIS HOLY SPIRIT!!! He has made US...US...with our self-righteous..prideful...messed up selves a little lower than the ANGELS!! THINK ABOUT THAT!!! DO YOU SEE THE MERCY OF GOD IN THAT???!!! I DO!!! And I thank God for His unlimited GRACE!!!

Lord, in the Name of Jesus...FORGIVE US for even THINKING more of ourselves than what we are!!! Deliver us from OURSELVES and help us to be humble. Help us to get a revelation that will change our entire lives of just how GREAT YOU ARE and how we are NOTHING WITHOUT YOU!!! Help us to be vessels of Love and always conscious that you are ever present watching everything we do...in Jesus Name...AMEN!!!

A Wonderful Revelation!

Have you ever known something but the Holy Spirit brings it back to your remembrance and gives it such clarity that it almost knocks you off your feet??? Well, that happened to me last night AND I praise God because He allowed me to share it with someone today and I believe to His Glory that it helped her.
We are children of God, right? We believe that He is on our side, right? Then, why do we worry?? Especially after we've prayed and told him all about it. Last night I was moving about in my room (or was it this morning?? (smile)) when I thought about my Heavenly Father. A peace came over me and I just knew everything was going to be alright. Somehow, someway, we can testify to it...God ALWAYS works situations out for our good. Always!!! But, between the beginning of the problem and the solution, we allow so much to come in that keeps us from peace!! WHY? All we have to do is to think back on how God has made ways in the past and how things always worked out and apply it to our current situation....Different situation...SAME GOD!! When that thought hit me this morning...all my worries went away. I put it all in His hands FOR REAL and walked away from it. I trust Him with it and I'm going to ENJOY THE TIME BETWEEN THE BEGINNING OF THE PROBLEM AND THE SOLUTION GOD WILL GIVE ME!! PRAISE HIM!!!

A Peaceful Day and Some Changes Coming!

Today has been a wonderful, quiet and peaceful day. I thank God for it. Usually, during the weekend the hours just seem to go by so fast! But, today, I noticed that for me...time taried. I did not feel rushed, pressured, oppressed, worried...It has been and will continue to be a wonderful day! Praise God!

I feel so much better...but guess what?? A sister is about to start working out again!! I'm noticing those pounds coming back! My clothes are not fitting like they used to. Gotta get back to work! I have allowed myself to 'let loose' a little these past few weeks because I KNOW that it's about to be on and popping!! The girls are out for the summer and I've noticed that they've gained a few pounds...MAMMA IS NOT HAVING IT!! I ordered us a fun work out kit and I can't wait until it comes! Every evening after work we will be doing it TOGETHER!! I refuse to put back on all the weight that I've lost! I am actually excited about getting moving again.....LOOK OUT!!!!

Still in the battle.......

Wow!! I haven't written for several days! My last post was about my car. To God Be the Glory it is sitting in the driveway and I give God praise! HE truly worked everything out in our favor.
For the last 2 or 3 days, I have been sick so I give God praise for the strength to even sit here and look at this computer! (smile)24 hours ago, it was wouldn't have been so! I bind all the backlash of satan in the Name of Jesus!! We must realize that he is ALWAYS looking for ways to get in. As soon as things started working out with the car I was sticken with a terrible migraine and nausea. From the left side of my head, all behind my eye all the way into my neck and shoulders ached! It was a constant throbbing that got worse with the slightest movement. Yesterday the pain spread on the right side of my neck as well and I could not turn my head without pain and I felt as if I were on a 'cloud of pain'. No medicine that I took seemed to work so I just prayed and tried my best to just rest before the Lord. I know He has ALL things in control. That leads me to say what I'm about to say.....some of the blessings that God gives us, He doesn't allow the enemy to even touch!! He is not permitted to put his hands on it! I believe this angers him and he tries to 'lash' out in other areas whether its us personally or a family member, etc. We must always be on the battle field and aware of our spiritual surroundings. God is sending several breakthroughs to my family, the flood gates are opening in the Name Of Jesus and I praise Him for it!! I FEEL the breakthru on the horizon but I feel warfare rising but I PRAISE GOD THAT I'M STILL IN THE BATTLE!!! I'm not a casualty, I have not run scared and I've not been so wounded that they have to send me back home! I have my weapons and I am ARMED with the Word of God and FAITH!!! IN THE END....I WIN..in Jesus Name! We must ALL have this attitude. I might have been 'hit' but it did not take me out and I thank God for His Grace and Mercy and the season of rest and prosperity that is about to come!

PRAISE GOD!!

I HAVE A NEW CAR!!! (I just need to go pick it up! LOL!) The color and model we wanted was not in stock but TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!! Hopefully I will be able to go pick it up tomorrow. We watched God work out every detail of our day!! PRAISE GOD!!! HE truly answers prayer! I am soooo excited!!

Hmmmm......

I didn't get a chance to write yesterday...I'm sitting here now praying on what to write today. My car has been acting up and it's been taken to the shop twice and they told me both times that there was NOTHING wrong with it! HUH? It went to a shop in knightdale and one in Rocky Mount so it wasn't the same shop. Wow. Nothing wrong. I was told to just drive it until it "stopped" or got so bad that I could bring it back and maybe THEN it will show a code...uh...huh? I was told that it MIGHT need a part that would cost $350 but they were not sure whether or not that was even the problem. I've been dealing with the issue for months now and it has gotten worse. So, do I drive it until it stops and then have the expense of getting it towed? Naw..THAT WILL NOT BE MY PORTION IN JESUS NAME!!! Then, a few days ago, my remote to it stopped working. My car was acting crazy. It was beeping in the driveway and no one had even touched the keys! LOL. It would lock all of a sudden and it would just flash and just act POSSESSED! Well, I was told the remote might need a battery. Went to radio shack, brought a battery....yep. you guessed it. STill isn't working....something deeper is wrong. i didn't buy a battery for the other remote. It didn't need one. I took it out and tried it and that didn't work either...so, the problem was not the battery. I'm thinking...OK God. Are you showing me its time to get rid of this car???? I'm trusting Him! I will not be afraid to go to a dealership and drive away with something dependable! I serve a GOOD God that supplies ALL of my needs according to His riches in Glory!!!! I guess I said all of that to say this...STOP LIMITING GOD!! He is so much bigger than the box we put Him in!!! Now, am I going to continue to drive up and down the road with my 2 daughters waiting for my car to break down or am I going to take my behind to a dealership and believe God to make a way for me?? Dealership.....HERE I COME!! I was also reminded of what a friend said a few weeks back. She was talking about her vehicle. She said that God TOLD her to trade her car. But, she didn't. Looking at the physical and questioning herself. The car has given her problems ever since!! She has put so much money in it! Her advice before she even knew what was going on was when God tells you something or puts in your heart something to do....JUST DO IT!! Let's stop limiting God. It shows a lack of faith. Let's trust Him with our whole heart and move forward to receive our blessings!!

The Rain!

I am sitting here at my computer doing some work and just listening to the rain. It sounds so relaxing...so gentle. It has been so, so very dry lately. A few of my trees and flowers in the yard were looking kinda weak! That got my mind thinking on another level. So many times in our lives we just feel weak...drained. For whatever the reason, we begin to feel as if our strength is almost gone. Our spirit seems to be getting low because we're not getting in the Word like we should or just issues of LIFE come and "things" kinda chip away at our strength. But, our God is faithful. He is such a GOOD DADDY!! He KNOWS what we stand in need of and He will supply it. Whenever I see a steady, quiet rain like this, I always think of "rejuvenation" or "a fresh outpouring". I can almost hear the flowers and greenery in my yard sigh with relief and give Glory to God for the rain!! So, my soul does the same when my Heavenly Father replenishes and renews my strength! I PRAISE HIM today!!! Thank you Lord for the RAIN!!!

I LOVE LIFE!!

I've heard unsaved people say that they don't want to get saved because a Christian's life if boring! Wow! What a MYTH!! That's a lie of the enemy! Truly, once you give your life to Christ, that's when it gets good!! Not only do you get assurance of Eternal Life as you stay with Christ but you also get to cultivate a loving, relationship with God!! WOW!! What is boring about THAT?? Your life is filled with purpose and your eyes are opened up to another realm of Godly opportunities that are Limitless in God! NOTHING is impossible for Him! Why not serve Him? Everyday is a different day because as you yield your life to Him, He is steady changing us and growing us and wooing us closer to Him! We get to seek Him and know Him and learn of His ways! As we draw closwer to Him, He begins to show us more of Himself! HEY! IF YOU'RE NOT SAVED...YOU'RE MISSING OUT!!! THIS IS WHERE IT'S AT!!! Don't let the devil fool you!! Drinking, hanging out at clubs, gangs, fornication....ALL of those things can KILL you BOTH SPIRITUALLY AND PHYSICALLY! Everyday without Him is dangerous.....But, with Him, you get ETERNAL LIFE. The BEST LIFE THERE IS!!!

Wow. I am reading the most AWESOME book......"Holy Discontent" by Bill Hybels. AWESOME. Sometimes we go through things and if we were to talk to anyone else about it, sometimes, they don't understand.. you wonder if you're alone. But, then God will lead you to a certain person, a tv show, a song, scripture or even a book where it so mirrors what you're going through that you could've written it yourself. PRAISE GOD!!! To anyone out there who feels no one understands...someone does. Not only God does but there is nothing new under the sun. Someone has been there and if you keep trusting and seeking God, He will lead you right to the answer that you seek!!! PRAISE GOD!!!

The Limitless Lady.....

A while back I had a dream. In the dream it was if I was looking down at a dam. One side of the dam was full of water. The other side of the dam was dry as a bone. On the dry side a person stood looking at the dam. Then, the person began to PRAY, PRAISE AND SPEAK THE WORD OF GOD to the dam. As the person continued to do so, I began to see cracks appear in the wall and water began to seep through on the dry side. The more the person prayed, praised and spoke the Word of God to the wall, the more water seeped through. I woke up and instantly praised God. The water represented the blessings, peace and the things that we desire from the Lord. The dam represented the thing or things that keep us from the flow the blessings. As the person who was on the dry side began to Stand in Faith, Seek God by Praying, Praising Him and Speaking His Word to the dam, the blessings began to seep through. The more the person did this, the bigger the cracks became. I PRAISE GOD for giving me this dream!!! Now, put YOURSELF in the place of "the person" and read this again and SPEAK to EVERY HINDERANCE IN YOUR LIFE by faith and watch God MOVE!!!

To Encourage You: Poems, Inspirational Writings and Affirmations

God is so good!! I am so excited about my new book! It has been a work in progress for a while now but has finally been manifested. To God Be The Glory!! Whether you are a teenager or adult, I hope and pray this book is a blessing to you!

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WOW!! I haven't updated my blog in a long time. I have ALOT going on! GOD IS GOOD!! He is truly doing some awesome things and I give Him ALL the Glory for it! A few years ago, I was driving home for lunch and I was talking to the Lord. It was cold out. I remember asking Him for "spiritual rain" (Blessings). As I continued to just talk to Him, I thought about snow. Most likely because it was so cold, I thought about physical rain and if it did PHYSCIALLY rain, it would be snow...(go figure, this was my thought process) Out of my spirit, I heard "It's ALREADY SNOWING". I looked around me and the earth was bone dry and I remember being baffled...already snowing? Then, I thought about snow. Now, I'm no meterologist but I've heard them say many, many times over the years that the atmosphere has to be JUST RIGHT before it to snow. It's a tricky thing. Also, snow is actually falling sometimes hours before it "hits the ground"!! WOW. So, as I begin to think more and more on this I only could give God more praise. Things began to make sense! I began to get a revelation of what was said to me. I began to praise the Lord. I can't recall the word that meterologist use but I'm going to say "upper levels of the atmosphere". Anyway, I've heard them say that the upper atmosphere has to be saturated with this snow until it drops the temperature just right for it to begin to be seen falling with our eyes. This made me think of the blessings of God. He is pouring them out. They are on the way but the atmosphere has to be right before things are MANIFESTED....WHOA!!! DID YOU CATCH THAT??? AWESOME!!! I PRAISE GOD FOR THE REVELATION. As I continue to walk IN FAITH toward my destiny and set the atmosphere around me to receive, His promises and BLESSINGS WILL BE MANIFESTED IN MY LIFE.

GOD HAS DONE SO MANY WONDERFUL THINGS!!! Last week, my friend invited my hubby and I to the last night of their 7 night revival. She had been telling me how good it was and really wanted us to come. I had mentioned it to my hubby but before I even got the rest of it out of my mouth, I felt his resistance. I told my friend that I would love to come but I didn't think my hubby would. She immediately begin to pray that the Holy Spirit would draw him. Indeed it did! Praise God I was shocked myself! He admitted to me days later that he did all he could not to go but nothing worked! I was so pressed in my spirit to get there. All day long that day I felt an 'excitement' an "expectation". I knew that something LIFE CHANGING was about to take place and as soon as we stepped through the door I felt the sweet, sweet presence of God. As soon as the man of God stepped into teh pulpit, God begin to use him to confirm and to teach deliverance to both my family situation. it was AWESOME. BLESS GOD!!! As the night ended and I stepped out of that place, even until now, almost a week later, I KNOW that I have changed. My life has changed, my destiny is now and EVERYTHING has shifted. WE are NOW walking in God's favor, callings and blessings! Not even two days later, my husband got a JOB after being laid off OVER A YEAR! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!! I WORSHIP AND PRAISE HIM AND THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!! AMEN AND AMEN!!!!

The Lord taught me 2 things today. 1 about leadership and 2 about prayer. Recently, I took the lead with one other person to organize a trip. When the response did not come like I thought it would, I got anxious and angry. I called my sister in law to 'complain' and to make a long story short, she told me that some of my frustrations just come with leadership! Even though she told me that early this morning, it stuck with me and God began to minister to me. Leadership and being a leader means you have to deal with people, many different kinds of people with different attitudes and opinions. Being a leader of a small group or a large group, it doesn't matter, it takes risks, involves frustrations and the ability to be able to work with others. Now, that ties into my the 2nd lesson that was taught to me. All of us read and sing about the Prayer of Jabez. We pray it with all the faith in the world. I have prayed it with all the faith in the world, but the Lord brought to my attention the part about "Enlarging My Territories". Now, honestly, do we think God is just going to enlarge our territories without any responsiblity on our part? The Heavenly Father that I know does not waste and opportunity to TEACH AND GROW US. In order for Him to enlarge our territory, we must be willing to be ENLARGED! That means He is going to lead us into certain situations where we HAVE to step up and take on greater responsibility. I am, in a sense already a leader. I'm a leader in my home and on my job but, God is using this situation to make me a leader on a bigger scale. He IS enlarging my territory!!! Let's not miss God by thinking He is going to do it a certain way: our thoughts are not His. I repented today and accepted the responsibility of this specific duty and I look at it differently now. Praise God!

Anyone that has become great or famous did not get that way by staying in their comfort zone. In order to get to the next level, you've GOT to step out of the box!
- The Limitless Lady -

I forgot to add something that came to me today. My motto and the name of my team with Ardyss International has been "Take the Limits off." Well, as I was sitting here a little earlier the "Limitless Lady" popped into my spirit. WOW! Meet the LIMITLESS LADY. Not only with Ardyss International but in EVERY AREA OF MY LIFE. I'm speaking into existence!

THE LIMITLESS LADY
MILLIONAIRE HOPE HARGROVE

NICE TO MEET YOU!!!

I had SUCH an AWESOME day today! It was beautiful, peaceful and even though I didn't make it to church today my heart was in a thankful posture ALL day long. I praise the Lord for a day filled with His prescence, His goodness and His Mercy!! Even now I feel His sweet prescence and my eyes are filling with tears!!! For the last COUNTLESS weeks I have felt like a chicken with its head cut off. I've been so BUSY! At the end of each day I would fall into bed more mentally exhausted than physically exhausted. Yes, my body was tired but more so, my mind. BUT, PRAISE GOD! He gave me a day of rest and peace today that I am so thankful for that all I can do is worship HIM! Have you ever been there? Do you know what I mean? My children were here and they had their cousin stay over so you would've thought it would've been chaotic, but no. I moved through my home today with such a peace of mind and spirit that I even cooked a big dinner and actually sat down without feeling 'guilty'. I PRAISE GOD!!!! I thank Him for rejuvenating my spirit and restoring my stength. I love HIM!!

The Limitess Lady......

I have not written in a while. I have been extremely busy and extremely tired. I'm learning that sometimes its not that something is physically wrong that makes you feel drained...it can be PEOPLE. The best thing to do is to nicely disengage yourself from leeches and keep it moving!!!

All I can say is AWESOME. GOD is awesome! He is moving and I LOVE IT. I decided a while back that the ONLY path I wanted to follow was the one HE destined me to follow before I was even created in my Mother's womb. I love Him. I praise Him and I magnify Him. He is my all in all and all I need. I can't do anything without Him. A life wasted is one that never fulfills its destiny and my life will NOT be wasted!! I am 37 years old and realize that I have not even begun to live. I live when Christ's will is being done through me. Guess what? I am beginning to LIVE. This IS my NOW moment! Look out World! Here I come! I WILL be one who at the end of my days will be able to say that I have run the race that God has set before me and I'll know my work is done and that God will have a crown laid up in Glory for me!! I encourage you to determine in this life to do the same!! PRAISE HIM! PRAISE HIM! PRAISE HIM!! IN JESUS NAME! AMEN!!

I didn't record anything last night. I was so busy! But, as I'm sitting here this morning I am remembering my day yesterday and how I received calls/emails of people in the Body of Christ just going through!! We seem to be in war right now and in the very heat of the battle but continue to fight and HOLD ON!! GOD IS GOING TO SHOW UP AND SHOW OUT!! Our part is to war effectively with the Word of God and not with our emotions. Oh! I'm a witness. The enemy tries to attack me through my emotions alot but he's a liar and I close and seal that door with the annointing in the Name of Jesus! HOLD ON SAINTS! VICTORY IS ASSURED! God is about to pour out some AWESOME blessings and the enemy is mad. He can't stop it so he's trying to frustrate it but he won't win! I ask the Lord to cover everyone that is going through something right now with His peace that surpasses all understanding in the Name of Jesus!! Regardless of what you're going through, God is still God and He will come to see about us. Just know that trials come to make us stronger and we will be stronger if we just hold on. Then, when we've come through, we can reach back and bring someone else up out of that same pit. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!! AMEN!!

Today I did something totally unselfish! (I'm patting myself on the back. (smile)) I went to lunch with my hubby. Yeah, Yeah. I hear you. How can that be unselfish? Well. My lunch time is MY time. It is my time to be alone. To run errands. To have quiet time. To reflect. As sad as it sounds, I am so busy that my lunch time is the only time I really get ALONE. Away from my family! In the mornings I'm getting up kids and making sure they are off to school and in the afternoons I get home, wash my hands and get right to dinner, homework, social time and by the time I put them to bed..I'm beat! So! My lunchtime is MINE.

Hubby and I were not on the same page about some things. I sensed the distance. I was not a happy camper. Our household was not in unity. I was sitting at my desk and an idea popped into my head to see if he would like to have lunch. Now, to be honest, the first thing I thought was "That's MY time! I have errands to run. I need to clear my head!" and really, I did NOT want to go to lunch with him. I didn't! (I'm being real) But, I knew that if that was what I needed to do, I had to put my plans aside. I texted him and he agreed to meet me.

Guess what? We had a nice lunch. We talked. We laughed. It was good. It was relaxing. Lesson learned: We must be flexible. Our plans should not always be written in stone. God may want us to change them. He knows what our future holds and He knows what we need. This evening my household is running like a well oiled machine and everyone is at peace again. Praise God. I KNOW it is because somehow, something as insignificant as lunch, my husband and I reconnected again. Now, what if I had been unyielding & selfish? Think about it! BE BLESSED!

I got so tickled today!! On my road to finding out exactly WHO I am, I've learned that first, we MUST be honest with ourselves! For so long, I've stood under the shadows of others. I did what they did. I agreed with what they said. I was like a puppet. I didn't even know who HOPE was! Well, on my road to 'deliverance' (smile) I've decided to just be HONEST! God knows and discerns our hearts! He knows us better than we know ourselves but we can not expect to be delivered if we are not willing to be honest with ourselves! I think the worse possible thing we could do is to lie to ourselves about ANYTHING!!
Now, I attend an event on a semi-regular basis. It's 'tradition'. (no, not church) I remembered thinking "I'm tired, but I'm going to press to go. Why? Because......hmmmmmm......" At first, I was completely blank! I began to try to pull all these reasons out of the sky and I KNEW I was lying to myself. I was 'faking the funk' right there all by myself to myself! I realized what a mess I was making and I began to laugh. I'm laughing now! I had an 'aha!' moment! I realized that there was no one in my head but Me and God, so why lie? What good was that going to do me? I repented and I told the Lord, "OK. I don't enjoy this event. I don't get anything out of it. I'm not focused. I sit there and try to glance at other people's watches so that It won't be obvious that I'm glancing at my own because I am so ready to leave....I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO!!! HELP! "At that moment, I was free! WHEW! God already knows and whether what we are feeling is a good emotion or a bad one, wrong or right, He is there to help!! He wants that vital relationship with us where we trust Him with everything! If it was something that was vital and I just HAD to be there, He would have taken that negative emotion and given me the strength I needed to press on. Because I was honest and real, I would have pressed on in His strength and not my own and there would have been a special blessing waiting. Now, if I was not obligated to go or if there really was some issues there where I needed to make some changes, He would have guided me in that area as well. The point is, I'm learning to be honest with myself and with God. It's a liberating feeling!! TRY IT!! In the end, my daughter was not feeling well so I didn't go but still the lesson was learned. "TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE!" I don't know who said that but I bet they had an "aha!" moment as well. Be Blessed!!!