I didn't record anything last night. I was so busy! But, as I'm sitting here this morning I am remembering my day yesterday and how I received calls/emails of people in the Body of Christ just going through!! We seem to be in war right now and in the very heat of the battle but continue to fight and HOLD ON!! GOD IS GOING TO SHOW UP AND SHOW OUT!! Our part is to war effectively with the Word of God and not with our emotions. Oh! I'm a witness. The enemy tries to attack me through my emotions alot but he's a liar and I close and seal that door with the annointing in the Name of Jesus! HOLD ON SAINTS! VICTORY IS ASSURED! God is about to pour out some AWESOME blessings and the enemy is mad. He can't stop it so he's trying to frustrate it but he won't win! I ask the Lord to cover everyone that is going through something right now with His peace that surpasses all understanding in the Name of Jesus!! Regardless of what you're going through, God is still God and He will come to see about us. Just know that trials come to make us stronger and we will be stronger if we just hold on. Then, when we've come through, we can reach back and bring someone else up out of that same pit. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!! AMEN!!

Today I did something totally unselfish! (I'm patting myself on the back. (smile)) I went to lunch with my hubby. Yeah, Yeah. I hear you. How can that be unselfish? Well. My lunch time is MY time. It is my time to be alone. To run errands. To have quiet time. To reflect. As sad as it sounds, I am so busy that my lunch time is the only time I really get ALONE. Away from my family! In the mornings I'm getting up kids and making sure they are off to school and in the afternoons I get home, wash my hands and get right to dinner, homework, social time and by the time I put them to bed..I'm beat! So! My lunchtime is MINE.

Hubby and I were not on the same page about some things. I sensed the distance. I was not a happy camper. Our household was not in unity. I was sitting at my desk and an idea popped into my head to see if he would like to have lunch. Now, to be honest, the first thing I thought was "That's MY time! I have errands to run. I need to clear my head!" and really, I did NOT want to go to lunch with him. I didn't! (I'm being real) But, I knew that if that was what I needed to do, I had to put my plans aside. I texted him and he agreed to meet me.

Guess what? We had a nice lunch. We talked. We laughed. It was good. It was relaxing. Lesson learned: We must be flexible. Our plans should not always be written in stone. God may want us to change them. He knows what our future holds and He knows what we need. This evening my household is running like a well oiled machine and everyone is at peace again. Praise God. I KNOW it is because somehow, something as insignificant as lunch, my husband and I reconnected again. Now, what if I had been unyielding & selfish? Think about it! BE BLESSED!

I got so tickled today!! On my road to finding out exactly WHO I am, I've learned that first, we MUST be honest with ourselves! For so long, I've stood under the shadows of others. I did what they did. I agreed with what they said. I was like a puppet. I didn't even know who HOPE was! Well, on my road to 'deliverance' (smile) I've decided to just be HONEST! God knows and discerns our hearts! He knows us better than we know ourselves but we can not expect to be delivered if we are not willing to be honest with ourselves! I think the worse possible thing we could do is to lie to ourselves about ANYTHING!!
Now, I attend an event on a semi-regular basis. It's 'tradition'. (no, not church) I remembered thinking "I'm tired, but I'm going to press to go. Why? Because......hmmmmmm......" At first, I was completely blank! I began to try to pull all these reasons out of the sky and I KNEW I was lying to myself. I was 'faking the funk' right there all by myself to myself! I realized what a mess I was making and I began to laugh. I'm laughing now! I had an 'aha!' moment! I realized that there was no one in my head but Me and God, so why lie? What good was that going to do me? I repented and I told the Lord, "OK. I don't enjoy this event. I don't get anything out of it. I'm not focused. I sit there and try to glance at other people's watches so that It won't be obvious that I'm glancing at my own because I am so ready to leave....I JUST DON'T WANT TO GO!!! HELP! "At that moment, I was free! WHEW! God already knows and whether what we are feeling is a good emotion or a bad one, wrong or right, He is there to help!! He wants that vital relationship with us where we trust Him with everything! If it was something that was vital and I just HAD to be there, He would have taken that negative emotion and given me the strength I needed to press on. Because I was honest and real, I would have pressed on in His strength and not my own and there would have been a special blessing waiting. Now, if I was not obligated to go or if there really was some issues there where I needed to make some changes, He would have guided me in that area as well. The point is, I'm learning to be honest with myself and with God. It's a liberating feeling!! TRY IT!! In the end, my daughter was not feeling well so I didn't go but still the lesson was learned. "TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE!" I don't know who said that but I bet they had an "aha!" moment as well. Be Blessed!!!