Transition

I have not posted anything in a while. Why? I don't have too much to say! LOL! I'm not a person of "fillers" or someone who tries to spark up a conversation. I just don't. I've tried a few times but it doesn't work well. (smile) At those times, my mind is blank. I'm either very quiet or a chatter box. I guess I could fill my blog up with quotes and scriptures but...nah...those things are good but I want to TELL you something. I want to share me with you. I know it's strange but I have accepted the fact that God just made me wonderfully different. (smile)
I'm in transition. To be very transparent...it sucks. When I look at it from a spiritual standpoint, I guess I can say that it's exciting. I know God is getting ready to do this AWESOME, BIG thing in my life and it's almost like I am getting ready to start this wonderful new race or journey. I am at the starting point, kneeling down anxiously waiting and listening for the gun to go off so I can RUN...
But I said something that I want to point out..."waiting". LOL> I posted a while back that I've left impatience behind; and I have but the waiting is wearing me OUT. It seems as if every area of my life is in transition.(UHHH!) Everything about me is changing........very slowly. I know the break"out" is coming. I have no doubt and I choose to wait but...uh...hmmm....(resting my hand on the side of my face, tapping my cheek with my fingertips) I could probably speed it up in my own strength but, I choose not to. There are so many shifts and changes going on right now that I can't TRUST MYSELF to make any decisions in my own strength! IT MUST BE GOD!
I was given confirmation of what I was going through by a woman of God who barely knows me. She told me that God was replanting me and likened it to a house plant that has to be moved to a bigger pot. I want to elaborate on it a little more because I love house plants and have several in my home. The pot it is currently in is too small and is stunting the plants growth but the new pot is not without its challenges. First the plant has to be carefully uprooted from its old pot. Sometimes the roots can even entangle themselves in the bottom of the pot and have to be carefully removed! It is being removed from the environment that it had grown accustomed to. Anyway, the old plant is carefully uprooted and put into the new, bigger pot. While in the pot the roots began to grow into the circle and mold of the old pot so the potter has to gently use his hands to loosen the roots and stretch them out. This again, can not feel good to the plant but its for its own good. This will help it to grow bigger in the new pot and to get better accustomed to the new soil. ALOT of new soil is added. New territory. New ground. New environment. New place. More room to grow. The comfort zone no longer exists. That plant has to get used to its new environment. Sometimes, the plant might go into shock. This is when the care of the potter comes in. Sometimes an extra fertilizer and water is added and the potter even loves on the plant and talks to it. Sometimes the plant is put in direct sunlight to give it a 'boost'. It stays under the potters watchful eye. Pretty soon, the plant begins to look greener, shinier. The lives are getting bigger and you begin to see the beginnings of new growth. You feel the plants joy of its new surroundings and all is well until it is time to transition again.
Now, I have no clue what stage of this I'm in but it is definitely in one of those uncomfortable stages! LOL. I am seeking God that I'm moving as He directs me and that I don't pull against the process. But, I'm thankful that even though I'm in an uncomfortable place, it's exciting and comforting to know that my Heavenly Father has His hands on me! I'm going to continue to hold on to Him. I'm going to continue to Praise Him and listen for His instructions for this next Phase of my life. He will truly order my steps.
So, feeling a little "out of place"? Are you feeling that your time is "up" in some areas and that it's time to move but you are kinda clueless? Your current level of worship is just not getting it anymore and you long for a deepness in Christ that you've never experienced? You just don't fit with the people around you anymore? They don't understand you? In a place where you are so desperate for a move of God that you feel that even if He tells you to do something completely radical you conclude that you would do it just to get out of that "place?"(God, don't test me on that one. LOL) Well!!! Join the club! He is ON HIS WAY!!! You are on the verge of a mighty, mighty new pot!! Brand, spanking new...just for YOU!! Just continue to praise and hold on to God. Pretty soon, you (we) will be planted and rooted in our new spot sprouting new leaves everywhere!! LOL!!!
Just wanted to encourage someone! Everyone might not understand this posting because we are all at different levels. Some have not been here. Some are going through it and some have gone through it and know exactly where I am.(those can pray for me) But, Praise God! He directs our steps. He will not leave us. He will perfect that which concerns us and He knows the plans He has for us. We are to Praise, Yield , Trust and wait on Him to complete the transition! Be Blessed!!!!