Spiritual Temper Tantrum

    LOL! Wow...what a topic. I'm going to be very transparent here and confess my fault....I had one today! LOL! It was a serious "pout party" but at the same time when I got a mental picture of what I was doing...I couldn't help but smile. I've had a very specific thing up before the Lord for a long time! God has moved so much in my life these past months that I KNOW this thing is right around the corner...but, I have to confess, I don't wait well. God is dealing with me here. He's growing me up. When I feel like I have confirmation on a thing or if I'm believing God for something and REFUSE to believe anything else....I'm ready for it to happen NOW. LET'S GO! Wait? Process? What's that??  (don't judge me...LOL) Well, today was a frustrating day for me. I guess you can put that mildly. I was crying out to the Lord and as I was sitting there,  I began to imagine how the Lord must see me...like a child who throws a temper tantrum. Although I was sitting at my desk doing my work appearing to everyone around me that I was focused and getting the job done, on the inside I was kicking, screaming, crying and rolling around on the floor. I was acting just like a child who wants a toy that a parent has put on top of the refrigerator and told them they couldn't have it...YET. As I envisioned myself having this "Spiritual Temper Tantrum", I also imagined seeing the Lord standing beside me while I'm rolling all over the floor. He's looking down at me. He's tapping His foot. He has His hands on His hips, He's rolling His eyes and He is looking down at me shaking His head. LOL. As much as I was into my pout party, when I imagined this...I had to LAUGH and yes, get myself together. I thought about a natural parent telling their child "not yet", "you just have to wait" and the child is not satisfied with that answer. That parent probably said "wait until after dinner" or "wait until Christmas" which is next month or "wait until your birthday" which is a week later, or just a plain "wait" with no time frame-- but, they totally tune out the part "not yet" and just want it NOW. How many of us are guilty of that? (Be honest) You know God is going to answer your prayer. You are praying and believing Him for something. You have His confirmation but it's a "not yet" so instead of Thanking Him and Praising Him for what's to come, at times of difficulty or when it seems like its not going to happen, you have a fit.  As I sat there and turned these thoughts over and over in my head...along with what happens when a child CONTINUES to throw this tantrum and the parent gets fed up with it, I QUICKLY checked myself then. (Plus, I was imagining myself just as I was.. a 41yr old woman having a fit...not pretty..even spiritually speaking, not pretty at all...LOL)  I had to repent and ask the Lord to forgive me. I began to just sit there and humble myself and pray. I began to praise Him again just for being who He is and for being such a GOOD, UNDERSTANDING, PATIENT PARENT. He loves us so much.