An Old Journal

     I was flipping through some old papers today and came across an old tablet that I had written a few journals in. I am going to copy one of them below that was written on 8/2/11. As I read it, all I could say was "wow". I just want to share this journal entry with you. It reads like a prayer. This was not even 2 months after I lost my daddy. It was a hard time trying to make sense of everything. The hows and the whys but also knowing that God was and is in control. The Lord was indeed an ever present help in the time of trouble and He was there through our entire ordeal up until my father transitioned to be with Him in Heaven. Those weeks leading up to and after was so HARD...BUT....if ANYONE knew the Lord, they could see HIM EVERYWHERE. It made me sit and meditate on spiritual and natural things...the seen and unseen...the known and the unknown...and just how FRAGILE we are as humans and just FAITH.  Do we REALLY have it, especially when times are hard and we can't see in front of us? Anyway...here's the entry...

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8-2-11

     It's not about power. It is not about arrogance. It's about being the best in you I can be. Reaching my full potential in your Glory. Doing all that I've been put on this earth to do and having all you say I can have, lacking nothing. 

     To walk in a state of belief in the supernatural-even more than the natural. To believe more in your spiritual truth than the natural facts. To live and think beyond the earth realm.

     To walk guided by you on an unknown path but knowing as I go forward a step will materialize under my feet. As I walk toward a wall, a door will open just in time for me to step through. As I walk in what feels like darkness a light will come on and I'll walk toward it. As I walk toward an ocean, you will part it before my feet. As I walk toward a cliff a helicopter will show up out of nowhere and take me to that next destination. WALKING BY FAITH. My steps being ordered by you even though I don't know where I'm going...you do. Although obstacles lay before me, I don't see them because my eyes are on you and my mind is on a spiritual plain that makes the natural with all it's obstacles seem easy. I float on. I walk on. My eyes on the prize. Straight ahead and focused on you. My head never down because I'm not defeated and not watching where my feet tread because you are guiding them. I keep my eyes on you.